What does Ogelbeh do at night?

I start beef with myself and let my constantly opposing feelings and thoughts hash it out for a while in a public place whilst making a mockery of myself presumably for the enjoyment of others regardless of whether anyone listens or not because the truth is its never been for them I do this for myself and sometimes I dont need to be heard I just need to remind myself what I sound like because I keep my mouth shut too often when it really matters and talk too much when I really dont matter